Kill All My Darlings

[an0ther_dreamer]

Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe
Subject: Natasha Romanoff, code name Black Widow
Title: Kill All My Darlings
Warnings/Notes: Made for the character study challenge at waywardmixes. Spoilers for Iron Man 2 and The Avengers. 8tracks stream and DL available.

The Character
Natasha Romanoff, code name Black Widow, is a master assassin and S.H.I.E.L.D. agent. Formerly a Russian spy, she is multilingual, an expert marksman, a martial arts expert, a master interrogator (particularly in "reverse interrogation") and a master seductress (as reflected in her code name). She seems to have undergone some kind of indoctrination in her past as she empathises with Clint Barton after he is freed from Loki's mind control spell.

Clint: You don't understand. Have you ever had someone take your brain and play? Take you out and stuff something else in? You know what it's like to be unmade?
Natasha: You know that I do.

As a Russian assassin Natasha was ruthlessly efficient in a way that she would later regret and that put her on S.H.I.E.L.D. Director Nick Fury's radar as a threat to global security. He sent Agent Clint Barton to eliminate her, but Barton "made a different call" and was able to convince her to defect from Russia and join S.H.I.E.L.D. instead.

Natasha now uses her espionage training to fight with The Avengers and S.H.I.E.L.D. to try to atone for her past actions.

Natasha: I've got red in my ledger; I'd like to wipe it out.

Black Widow by Susanne Sundfør
I am your black widow
I lay all my eggs in your eye
I'd kill all my darlings for you, my love
If only you would stay one more night

Now, I do not know why you love me so
I'm floating through your veins
I sway you in a silken shroud
In the end, I'm gonna swallow your heart


Lady Spider by Freezepop
I've been waiting for you patiently
I know you'll come my way eventually
The web I spin to draw you in
I'll have my way with you and then you'll see
I saw it on a nature documentary
And then a bad idea occurred to me

Lady spider lies in wait
Kills her suitor when they mate
I am not so extreme
So much nicer than I seem
Lady spider wants you dead
I'll just tie you up instead


Break You Hard by Natalia Kills
Kiss the boys and make 'em cry
Make 'em cry, make 'em cry
Don't need your heart 'cause I got mine
I got mine, I got mine

Take my love
Before I go
'Cause you should know
I'm about to break you hard
Take my love (take my love)
Before I go
'Cause you should know
I'm about to break you hard
Break you hard
Break you hard


Kill Of The Night by Gin Wigmore
Now you're mine
But what do I do with you, boy?
I'll take your heart
To kick around as a toy
The danger is I'm dangerous
And I might just tear you apart
Oh

I'm gonna catch ya
I'm gonna get ya, get ya
Oh, ah, oh
I wanna taste the way that you bleed, oh
You're my kill of the night



People Got A Lotta Nerve by Neko Case
So the saying says, "An elephant never forgets"
Standing in the concrete cave
Swaying side and sing
They walked over the ocean
In their dreams, they dreamed awake
Until the lights grew dim
Until the cop cars came
Everybody tells me this is crazy
Yes, I know, that I'm a

Man, man, man
Man, man, man-eater
And still, you're surprised-prised-prised
When I eat ya
🕸
It will end again in bullets, fired
It will end again in bullets, fired


Bad Intentions by Digital Daggers
I thought I was the victim, I played it well
Sifting through the records, trying to find myself
I tried to be salvation, tried to make it change
Ooh, but I've come too far to look the other way
Come closer
Deep down
You might like what I've found

I am not what I've done (what I've become)
The smoking gun (Can't fight these bad intentions)
I am not what I've done (what I've become)
The smoking gun (Can't fight these bad intentions)
Ah-ha-ah-ha

Just pull the trigger, I'll take the pain
(You know you wanted to)
(You know you wanted to)
Just pull the trigger, I'll take the blame
I'll be the villain, just play the game


Criminal by Fiona Apple
I've been a bad, bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad, sad world
When a girl will break a boy just because she can

Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin

What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love


Control (Apocalypse Remix) by Poe
Don't you mess with a little girl's dream
'Cause she's liable to grow up mean

Surprised you to find that I'm laughing?
You thought that you'd find me in tears
You thought I'd be crawling the walls
Like a tiny mosquito and trembling in fear
Well you may be king for the moment
But I am a queen, understand?
And I've got your pawns and your bishops and castles
All inside the palm of my hand

While you were looking the other way
While you had your eyes closed
While you were licking your lips
'Cause I was miserable
While you were selling your soul
While you were tearing a hole in me

I was taking control


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