I Win and Lose With You

[an0ther_dreamer]

Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe
Subject: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark
Title: I Win and Lose With You
Warnings/Notes: Post-Captain America: Civil War, Pre-Avengers: Infinity War Part 1

 

 

A Steve/Tony fanmix about fighting, phone calls and forgiveness.

Yeah, I know. I’m late to the party and I brought Our Lady Peace.

This is meant to be set between Civil War and Infinity War. You know, back when I thought that Tony and Steve were going to call each other and we'd get some emotional catharsis. The point being, there are definitely no Endgame spoilers here. (I haven't seen it yet.)

ETA: I added Hello by Adele and Radio Silence by Gretta Ray because they were nagging at me. (15/8/19).

Better Be Home Soon by Crowded House
Somewhere deep inside
Something's got a hold on you
And it's pushing me aside
See it stretch on forever
And I know I'm right
For the first time in my life
That's why I tell you
You'd better be home soon

Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning) by Vertical Horizon
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best
I ever had

And it may take some time
To patch me up inside
But I can't take it
So I run away and hide
And I may find in time
That you were always right
You're always right

Wreck of the Day by Anna Nalick
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you

And if this is givin' up
Then I'm givin' up
If this is givin' up
Then I'm givin' up, givin' up
On love, on love

Trust Me by The Fray
If I say who I know, it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me, we don't give sympathy
You can trust me, trust nobody
But I said you and me, we don't have honesty
The things we don't want to speak
I'll try to get out, but I never will
Traffic is perfectly still

We're only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older, you will understand

My Number by Tegan And Sara
So watch your head and then watch the ground
It's a silly time to learn to swim
When you start to drown
It's a silly time to learn to swim
On the way down

If I gave you my number
Would it still be the same?
If I saved you from drowning
Promise me you'll never go away
Promise me you'll always stay

If You're Gone by Matchbox Twenty
I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak
I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
Now I'm relaxed
I can't be sure

And I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life and
I think I'm scared I think too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone
Maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone
Baby you need to come home, come home
There's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

Hello by Adele
There's such a difference between us
And a million miles

Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times
To tell you
I'm sorry
For everything that I've done
But when I call you never
Seem to be home

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried
To tell you
I'm sorry
For breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly
Doesn't tear you apart anymore

It’s Only Me by Dessa
Hello, it's only me
I know it's late
Hoped to catch you still awake
And maybe I was wrong to call
Guess tonight broke my resolve

I've been having that dream again
It seems I always will
I don't know what the thing means
Except it sends me to the telephone, and still
I know that love is never free
It bows your head and bends your knees
But there's no sword without an edge
And I sleep uneasily when you're not in my bed, 'cause

I didn't come to play it safe
I came to win or lose with you
I only live alone awake
'Cause every night, yeah
You pass through
Yeah, you pass through

I didn't come to play it safe
I came to win or lose with you
And I win and lose with you

Sympathy by Goo Goo Dolls
Stranger than your sympathy
And this is my apology
I'm killing myself from the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out

And I wished for things that I don't need
(All I wanted)
And what I chase won't set me free
(It's all I wanted)
And I get scared but I'm not crawlin' on my knees

Oh, yeah
Everything's all wrong, yeah
Everything's all wrong, yeah
Where the hell did I think I was?

Radio Silence by Gretta Ray
All my sorries were useless, so I'll hold my breath
Wait it out and leave you be with all your rage
In your lonely and lovelessness
It's hard to be the one to save you
Our peers talk of you only in passing
Censoring their stories of your pain
But I know all about your bad nights
Tendency to slight at the mention of my name

I willingly take all the blame
But the ball is in your court

Honey, it kills me
The radio silence
I never saw us here
In a world where our lips are sealed
It's harder to heal
When honey it kills me
All of this quiet
I never thought you'd
Go out of your way to stay out of mine
But I'm putting my money on time
Put all my money on time

4 AM by Our Lady Peace
I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate

Then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong

And if I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
What's wrong

Say The Word by Vienna Teng
Say the word
And I just might listen
Say the word
And you might get your way
Loving you should be easier
But say the word
And I might have to stay

I Win and Lose With You from an0ther_dreamer on 8tracks Radio.